We're Back, Baby!

Date: Tuesday, 18th July 2023

Topic: Chatting

Good news: I'm literally fine! What I had naturally assumed to be a sudden and severe decline in health was in fact the completely typical interaction of Pre-Menstrual Dysphoria (not gender) and OCD that I experience roughly once every 3 - 5 months. Granted, I can't entirely blame it on foolishness; partly because I was experiencing new and incredibly distressing physical symptoms, and partly because I was out-of-my-fucking-mind levels of suicidal. I've spent most of the past week playing Flight Rising, sitting down in the shower, and rotating between the same three friends I can allow myself to speak to when I'm like this. But thankfully :3 I actually started menstruating yesterday, so I'll be on the upswing soon! I'm glad. It's been rough. We ran out of the brand of toothpaste I've used exclusively for about fourteen years, which means that I can't brush my teeth - but I have to brush my teeth, because I feel disgusting, which I can temporarily solve by brushing my teeth - but I can't brush my teeth. If my gums receed from overbrushing with this godawful replacement and brushing again to get rid of the sensation, I am going to do something violent and creative.

Bad news: my sister is still unwell. It's not serious, except that everything is when you're a hypochondriac, so she's having a rough time of it currently. Our dog can of course sense this disturbance, and has taken to sulking under a garden chair whenever she's allowed outside. Moody bitch < I'm not being mean this is a 100% factual statement, ask any other husky owner and they'll swear the same for their own dogs.

Other news: I have had 'Eat It Raw' by Infected Mushroom stuck in my head all day. No complaints here, because that song still kicks ass.